Late Fall 2006
Sun 29 Oct
Because the coupon for the YMCA will expire at the end of the month, I passed on my thought of going there this morning. Therefore, the concept of another church (such as the UCC nearby the YMCA) also postponed with the YMCA. Because we gained an hour last nigth, I was up early enough to crawl to Mass, along with the usual pap.
I cut the grass in the front lawn yesterday to grind up the first group of leaves. I finished grinding the rest of the back lawn and emptied the mower. It's done for the year.
Meanwhile, back with "Wealth without a Job", I am finding much of Andy Fuehl has much of the same themes from Tony Robbins and Dolf DeRoos. Of course, the real task is to put the concepts to use.
It seems as if I'll be palying the role of minority inspector at the polls on Election Day.
Thu 2 Nov
The time I waste every night is appalling. I had nearly two hours lost. Meanhwile, there appears to be a Democratic surge in the polls, despite Schrub's distortion of John Kerry's statement about being dumb enough to be stuck in Iraq. The latest polls show even more projected Democratic seats in the House, including Patrick Murphy's being ahead in the Eighth District. Michael J Fox came out for Murphy. The battle for the Senate remains close.
I've taken off Tuesday as I await the disc on the new voting machines (never came). It'll be a very long day!
I've tried getting off "Wealth without a Job". I may take some time trying to get going on it. My visualization may have to reappear in my stories. I looked over stuff I wrote and drew nearly twenty years ago, and I cannot fathom why I stopped doing it.
Sat 4 Nov
I was raking leaves when the rake broke. Even though we went shopping this morning, we still have some items to buy tomorrow.
Tue 7 Nov
The halfway of the marathon of polling passeed with my neighbor ast the 250th voter. At this point, we could hit 500 before the polls close (We hit 569.).
The national polls continue to show the battle for the control of the Senate doubtful, while the House will become Democratic. Schrub never ended his delusions on his failed policies.
Thu 9 Nov
We finally received a copy of the insurance, so I can take the van for inspection on Saturday. I'd still rather have the owner's card as well.
I've made little progress on "Wealth without a Job". I am still stuck on the purpose of my life. A thought of historical purpose comes to me. Could it be the answer?
The later tallies show us with 51 Senate seats and 232 House seats. The slap to Schrub led to the resignation of Donald Rumsfeld. The problem remains in office until 20 January 2009!
Sat 11 Nov
The day began with no inspection because we lack an owner's card. After getting groceries, we went for tags and the owner's card. Now everything is set for inspection next Saturday.
I had other errands as well, cleaning up a bit in the yards both back and front. Then the door handle to the side screen door broke off. While I went to Croyden for another. I stopped for wine, gasonline and money. I now have the means to get the van inspected. Also at the TruValue, I purchased a sprayer for the hose. Because the builders had taken down the assemblage, I had to put the hose directly into the spigot, and there were no leaks. Still I had to wash the van without a sprayer, which was cracked anyway. it is only now I am getting toard writing about it.
Sun 12 Nov
I cleaned out the van with the shopvac after drying out the refirgerator. Then I began to straighten out the basement. There is just so much to throw out!
Mon 13 Nov
Tonight I must stop at Block. It will be a busy week, although not as busy as the end of the month.. Hopefully the paperwork will run smoothly.
Tue 14 Nov
The paperwork did run smoothly, so I am done with Block for another week. As I was coming to work, I realized that I've never had an ultimate purpose in my life; it's been a series to changing priorities, similar to my changing majors in undergraduate school.
The goals were always shortterm and never put together. Once I settled into my current employer, I became comfortably numb
!
The work has slowed enough for me to think about purpose most of the day. I think purt of the problem of purpose was that whenever I moved toward a purpose, someone would discourage me from that purpose. None of the perceived purposes ever had a chance to develop. I may have uncovered forty years of discontent. Some of the complaint of purposelessness of my autobiography appears even more potentially true! Perhaps a purpose will align my life.
Over the weekend, I purchased Spiderman, and it turned out better than I'd expected. It's hard to realize the movie is four years old. Obviously the computer enhancements brought out the scenes from the comics.
Wed 15 Nov
The struggle for a purpose continued today as the work slackened. My life resembles the oldies station -- the same thing every day with no finish in sight. I search throughout my past to answer the list of what I'd like to do. but the traits don't seem to come quickly. I still don't think I've reached the root of the problem.
Fri 17 Nov
THe weather became nasty in the late afternoon, so I drove home instead of going to Toastmasters. I went to bed just past nine, and I awoke just past four . Eventually I dragged the most of the branches into the woods along with the dog. Then I took out the garbage and the recyclables. I waited until today because the weather was so rainy and windy. We are still getting water in the basement through the stairwell.
Today ran steadily, as I continue to contemplate my purpose. My first move in that direction should be a tribute to Matthew Wayne Shepard's thirtieth birthday, which looms only two weeks away. It still seems that writing -- ironically what I tried to avoid a quarter century ago -- may well be the very answer. It may also discipline my thinking.
Sat 18 Nov
I am sitting at the lobby of the inspetors, awaiting for them to inspect the van. I was the first one here. This morning just past 4 AM, and I began to shift toward what gives me pleasure. Later I was up and searched for astrophysics and biochemistry. I found some nice pictures, which I intend to place on my site. Perhaps I should concentrate on moving towards pleasure rather than to avoid pain. As Andy Fuehl says, avoiding pain is similar to driving away from what's in the rearview mirror. It certainly hasn't worked in three decades.
Another aspect I did not write recently has been the spate of my obtaining lyrics of songs which I have on records for nearly two score. It's good for the memory and music intelligence. Some of those lyrics I would've never figured out. Some I'd thought I knew, and I didn't. Of course, the foreign langugaged ones are the ones wherer I really need the lyrics!
Because the coupon for the YMCA will expire at the end of the month, I passed on my thought of going there this morning. Therefore, the concept of another church (such as the UCC nearby the YMCA) also postponed with the YMCA. Because we gained an hour last nigth, I was up early enough to crawl to Mass, along with the usual pap.
I cut the grass in the front lawn yesterday to grind up the first group of leaves. I finished grinding the rest of the back lawn and emptied the mower. It's done for the year.
Meanwhile, back with "Wealth without a Job", I am finding much of Andy Fuehl has much of the same themes from Tony Robbins and Dolf DeRoos. Of course, the real task is to put the concepts to use.
It seems as if I'll be palying the role of minority inspector at the polls on Election Day.
Thu 2 Nov
The time I waste every night is appalling. I had nearly two hours lost. Meanhwile, there appears to be a Democratic surge in the polls, despite Schrub's distortion of John Kerry's statement about being dumb enough to be stuck in Iraq. The latest polls show even more projected Democratic seats in the House, including Patrick Murphy's being ahead in the Eighth District. Michael J Fox came out for Murphy. The battle for the Senate remains close.
I've taken off Tuesday as I await the disc on the new voting machines (never came). It'll be a very long day!
I've tried getting off "Wealth without a Job". I may take some time trying to get going on it. My visualization may have to reappear in my stories. I looked over stuff I wrote and drew nearly twenty years ago, and I cannot fathom why I stopped doing it.
Sat 4 Nov
I was raking leaves when the rake broke. Even though we went shopping this morning, we still have some items to buy tomorrow.
Tue 7 Nov
The halfway of the marathon of polling passeed with my neighbor ast the 250th voter. At this point, we could hit 500 before the polls close (We hit 569.).
The national polls continue to show the battle for the control of the Senate doubtful, while the House will become Democratic. Schrub never ended his delusions on his failed policies.
Thu 9 Nov
We finally received a copy of the insurance, so I can take the van for inspection on Saturday. I'd still rather have the owner's card as well.
I've made little progress on "Wealth without a Job". I am still stuck on the purpose of my life. A thought of historical purpose comes to me. Could it be the answer?
The later tallies show us with 51 Senate seats and 232 House seats. The slap to Schrub led to the resignation of Donald Rumsfeld. The problem remains in office until 20 January 2009!
Sat 11 Nov
The day began with no inspection because we lack an owner's card. After getting groceries, we went for tags and the owner's card. Now everything is set for inspection next Saturday.
I had other errands as well, cleaning up a bit in the yards both back and front. Then the door handle to the side screen door broke off. While I went to Croyden for another. I stopped for wine, gasonline and money. I now have the means to get the van inspected. Also at the TruValue, I purchased a sprayer for the hose. Because the builders had taken down the assemblage, I had to put the hose directly into the spigot, and there were no leaks. Still I had to wash the van without a sprayer, which was cracked anyway. it is only now I am getting toard writing about it.
Sun 12 Nov
I cleaned out the van with the shopvac after drying out the refirgerator. Then I began to straighten out the basement. There is just so much to throw out!
Mon 13 Nov
Tonight I must stop at Block. It will be a busy week, although not as busy as the end of the month.. Hopefully the paperwork will run smoothly.
Tue 14 Nov
The paperwork did run smoothly, so I am done with Block for another week. As I was coming to work, I realized that I've never had an ultimate purpose in my life; it's been a series to changing priorities, similar to my changing majors in undergraduate school.
The goals were always shortterm and never put together. Once I settled into my current employer, I became comfortably numb
!
The work has slowed enough for me to think about purpose most of the day. I think purt of the problem of purpose was that whenever I moved toward a purpose, someone would discourage me from that purpose. None of the perceived purposes ever had a chance to develop. I may have uncovered forty years of discontent. Some of the complaint of purposelessness of my autobiography appears even more potentially true! Perhaps a purpose will align my life.
Over the weekend, I purchased Spiderman, and it turned out better than I'd expected. It's hard to realize the movie is four years old. Obviously the computer enhancements brought out the scenes from the comics.
Wed 15 Nov
The struggle for a purpose continued today as the work slackened. My life resembles the oldies station -- the same thing every day with no finish in sight. I search throughout my past to answer the list of what I'd like to do. but the traits don't seem to come quickly. I still don't think I've reached the root of the problem.
Fri 17 Nov
THe weather became nasty in the late afternoon, so I drove home instead of going to Toastmasters. I went to bed just past nine, and I awoke just past four . Eventually I dragged the most of the branches into the woods along with the dog. Then I took out the garbage and the recyclables. I waited until today because the weather was so rainy and windy. We are still getting water in the basement through the stairwell.
Today ran steadily, as I continue to contemplate my purpose. My first move in that direction should be a tribute to Matthew Wayne Shepard's thirtieth birthday, which looms only two weeks away. It still seems that writing -- ironically what I tried to avoid a quarter century ago -- may well be the very answer. It may also discipline my thinking.
Sat 18 Nov
I am sitting at the lobby of the inspetors, awaiting for them to inspect the van. I was the first one here. This morning just past 4 AM, and I began to shift toward what gives me pleasure. Later I was up and searched for astrophysics and biochemistry. I found some nice pictures, which I intend to place on my site. Perhaps I should concentrate on moving towards pleasure rather than to avoid pain. As Andy Fuehl says, avoiding pain is similar to driving away from what's in the rearview mirror. It certainly hasn't worked in three decades.
Another aspect I did not write recently has been the spate of my obtaining lyrics of songs which I have on records for nearly two score. It's good for the memory and music intelligence. Some of those lyrics I would've never figured out. Some I'd thought I knew, and I didn't. Of course, the foreign langugaged ones are the ones wherer I really need the lyrics!
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